
“Touched by an Angel”
by a Vagabond
Out of the dark there came an angel....
There, there was I, depressed, confused and tired of trying. The theatre play did not satisfy me, my love Miro was gone, and where was I?
Somewhere lost. I had given up differentiating between reality and fiction, my dreams were chasing their way- blending into reality-only to my eyes visible. I was living my nightmares, always ready for the worst, which transformed my life into an ‘egotistical-one-woman-show’…..I was feeling lonely and depressed, the world became an evil place for me.
One night, having a drink with some colleagues from the play, I was thinking: What for? Why? Can it really be that there is more negative energy than positive?
Walking to the bus station desperately wanting to get home I heard a little voice asking this awkward question into the darkening night:
“So, how many hours do you use your feet?”
What? What was that? Was there truly somebody asking me this question? Fifteen people were waiting at the station for the bus to come. The typical northern drizzle had started to wet the streets, when I turned around and saw this little, clumsy, Arabic Lady sitting on the bench with some plastic bags on the side of her. From her make-up and clothes I would say she was fairly rich, but then one look at her feet changed the whole picture- she wore these cheap sandals, which totally did not fit her outfit, her feet looked awful. I turned around and asked if she meant me.
“Sure I mean you! How many hours do you use your feet on a regular day?”
A little puzzled by what she actually wanted to know. I answered:
“Well, if I’m doing sports I may be using them four hours in a row.”
She smiled at me, in fact she always had a smile on her face, a really positive, obscure smile- gained by a lot of experience.
The mysterious Lady then said:
“Four hours…that is nothing. I use my feet at least ten hours without sitting down, because I have to run from here to there, to the washing center, to the fruit man, to the train station and so on and on…”
I shook my head, there was I feeling so miserable and sorry for myself, because of this freaking bad world, and a little, old Arabic grandmother was sitting at the bus station, where various people were hanging around and asked me these obscure questions.
The bus came and we both got inside, but sat down pretty far away from each other. Then “Hohelufbruecke”, my stop came, and I got off the bus. I walked down the road, passed MacDonald’s and when I looked back there was the little, old Lady again, so I decided to wait for her to give her some company. When she got to me she showed me her feet, which indeed looked really terrible with blisters all over. We talked about that she should put her feet in warm water in order to give them some rest. And again, she smiled at me and said:
“You know, I am very happy, because tomorrow I can sleep in. I can sleep until 9 o’clock.”
9 o’clock…went through my head that is not very long for me. Then she told me the street she had to go to and I wondered, knowing that in order to get to the neighbourhood she wanted to get to, she would have to cross the street. The street was in the exact opposite direction of where we were walking to. But no, she was still walking by my side telling me about her life back in Persia, where she never had to walk that much, she even had maids and did not have a clue how to raise the kids. She then started to work as a nurse, her feet, back then, were looking beautifully. There came my house and she wished me a very good night and on continuing walking in the wrong direction, carrying all her plastic bags, looking very awkwardly, her figure became a shadow and disappeared into the dark of the night.
I opened the door to my house and was walking up the stairs, still very confused about what just happened. I got into our apartment, went on the balcony, looked at the sky and talked to God:
“I know God, life is not at all so difficult, still you had to send this strange angel to me, to give me a sign of hope- thank you so much. I needed it.”
There was I, touched by an angel…..